Depression?

[Zetren 61]

Does it ever just hit you... or rather, in my case, just slowly seep in? Take today. Today was beautiful, had a meaningful philosophical conversation with an old man I admire, (the only man I truly admire). Listened to podcasts on a whole heap of topics, Gabor Maté on addiction, The Zeitgeist Movement, Satanism (yeah occasionally for shits and giggles I take a plunge into "that" side of youtube, we've all done it folks); and made a goddamn tasty pizza with my granny... Lol. 

 

Then I arrive home, and slowly it creeps, like how an epileptic can sense the onset of a seizure. This happens about once a month, almost exclusively as evening approaches. And it probably didn't help that I got around 6 hours of sleep last night too. 

 

But come the next day, typically a school day, I'm back to normal again. Although I don't have any close friends at school, the simple presence of them and their witty banter is enough to offset my low feelings. Irish schools are conservative to a T; sex segregation, uniforms, and only liberal arts subjects are taught... Life can be lonely. 

 

Anyway /venting. 

Edited May 10, 2015 by Zetren

[SupaTrolol 18]

I feel you man. 

Kind of funny that you mention it happens 'about once a month'...

[Takka 13,377]

It tends to just seep in like that for me if I'm not keeping myself too busy, and it doesn't always tend to be about anything in particular.

 

I have my solutions to get out of it when I need to, but I just have to make sure I don't let myself fall back into it again.

[reaply 718]

You know, it's hard to talk about depression because it's different for everyone. I never really knew depression until I got involved with a girl (I was feeling pretty dead on the inside

(girls suck)

)  and things happened. But for this kind of depression, it's about the will to want to continue on and to accept what happened so you need to tell yourself to let it go or learn how to deal with it as time goes on. Like I said, this is the only form of depression that I have truely suffered from and it wasn't a good feeling at all. All you can do is deal with it until you want to feel better.

 

edited because I didn't proof read and I did grammatical and spelling mistakes..

Edited May 11, 2015 by reaply

[Kvasir 1,482]

All you can do is deal with it until you want feel better.

I feel like this is a really good way to explain how I felt when I used to be majorly depressed. I still have my bad months but I'm far better now.

[Daywu 194]

I usually feel depressed almost everyday still. It probably because I used to be bullied for a long period of time and didn't have many true friends. And when I say "true friends", I mean friends that don't mind hanging out with me and/or actually likes to ask me to hang out. Sure I do have friends in school and they like talking to me and hang out with me at school. But they never think about asking me to hang out outside of school. There is only have one person I can consider a "true friend" right now. The only time I don't feel depressed is when I hang out with my "true friend". My depression was way worse couple years ago and it eased down a bit, but I still have amounts of depression. I try to get over it but it is hard for me and it might take a few more years for me to get over it. 

Edited May 11, 2015 by Daywu

[TCK 2,164]

Yeah I agree with Reaply on wanting to feel better. Years ago, junior year of high school, I felt bad because of my first breakup. I didn't realize until much later that I could have actually just felt better if I decided to - feeling depressed gets comfortable in a really unhealthy way, and you just let it continue; even worse is to develop a habit of getting depressed.

 

I'm convinced that depression is mental more often than chemical, because of that. Back then I let my parents talk me into thinking I had a problem enough for medication. No medication really changed the way I felt; and the reason is clear now, I had been simply letting myself feel bad because it was a habit.

[Pfhunkie 3,544]

"You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness. "

Essentially what we're getting at, right?

[Pra3tor1an 1,234]

I don't know the first thing about depression, although I have friends who suffer with it. I would imagine that it helps to talk to others and not bottle up how you feel.

[Krazychic 3,311]

I would imagine that it helps to talk to others and not bottle up how you feel.

 

 

This is true but it is also very hard to become, and stay, a close friend to one that suffers depression as it is never totally understood why one is depressed.  In saying that you should never ask one what they are depressed about for this is no concrete answer to be given and it has a magnitude of masks which are presented depending on the situation at hand.

 

The best you can do is be there for them, listen when they need you to and don't disregard them due to their down times.